Going into my second week of a 15 week program and I'm already wishing that it was over and done with. I'm not sure why but ever since I started this program I havent felt quite like myself.
I think a large part of this feeling is caused by the drastic changes I've made to my everyday life. Due to being a fulltime student I'm no longer able to make money for myself, I cant go out and enjoy doing the things I like to do. Going to the gym, random meals/surprises for Maggie, buying little things for myself etc.
Another thing that really pains me is that my time with Maggie has significantly been cut down due to such an early start in the morning. Our 11pm weeknights together have now been cut down to 9pm, and I have to be asleep by 1030-11pm just to get enough sleep in. =( BCIT really needs to rethink their strategies. They stress over and over, to take care of yourself while you're a student there, however they start at ridiculous hours and assign insane amounts of homework. *Insert what the fuck face here*
I'm worried that our time together will be cut down so much that I only see her once a week, if that. I know its inevitable as it seems ABET doesnt really allow for a social life, but for now I'd like to spend as much time with her as possible.
I guess the only plus side is that the time will go faster than I think, and before I know it, I'll be looking for a fulltime job again. June 2014 cant come any sooner
Sunday 15 January 2012
Thursday 6 October 2011
School
It's been almost 3 weeks since we returned home from our trip and things feel normal again. I still do occasionally daydream of our trip, but the post vacation syndrome has definitely subsided. I also find I'm not bitter about the weather anymore, I've just come to accept it.
As of late I've been quite stressed about my upcoming school career and how I'm going to survive, how I'll pay for the necessities and most importantly how I'm going to get around. Back in 05/06 I didnt have a car or a license, and had to bus to school. Luckily someone I knew was in my class and I carpooled with him everyday. However on the days I had to stay late to finish work, or he would leave early etc, I'd be left at the mercy of our transit system.
Ive been exploring the student loan route and gathering any info I can, but its super frustrating. The government wants to know EVERY SINGLE detail of your income and any assets you have so they can "assess" your situation.
Now the more frustrating bit, my options arent too great and there have already been a few bumps in the road. The tech entry program doesnt show up on the BCSL online application section, so does that mean it's not an eligible program for a loan? According to the BCSL reps I've spoken with it SHOULD be on there, so I had to fill out some online forms and BCIT will be contacted electronically to help me find the program, or fill out a form for me and send it back to BCSL. So what does that mean?
MORE WAITING and wasting time! Time that I dont have.. I need to get an application in asap due to their "assessment wait" of 4-6 weeks, not to mention the time it would take for snail mail to go back and forth. (If it comes down to that)
I'm starting to think I should just get a loan from RBC, it seems a little more hassle free, but from what I've read you're required to pay the interest WHILE you're a student. Sort of defies the purpose of a loan doesnt it? I mean, how is a student expected to pay ANYTHING back if they have NO MONEY? Something doesnt add up here.
Anyway, since I only have a few months of freedom left, I've really been valuing time alone with Maggie. I have no idea how much I'll get to see her when school starts, and if I'm unable to insure my car it will be impossible to see her whenever I want to. A part of me is starting to think school isnt the best choice, especially if I'm not guaranteed any career upgrades
As of late I've been quite stressed about my upcoming school career and how I'm going to survive, how I'll pay for the necessities and most importantly how I'm going to get around. Back in 05/06 I didnt have a car or a license, and had to bus to school. Luckily someone I knew was in my class and I carpooled with him everyday. However on the days I had to stay late to finish work, or he would leave early etc, I'd be left at the mercy of our transit system.
Ive been exploring the student loan route and gathering any info I can, but its super frustrating. The government wants to know EVERY SINGLE detail of your income and any assets you have so they can "assess" your situation.
Now the more frustrating bit, my options arent too great and there have already been a few bumps in the road. The tech entry program doesnt show up on the BCSL online application section, so does that mean it's not an eligible program for a loan? According to the BCSL reps I've spoken with it SHOULD be on there, so I had to fill out some online forms and BCIT will be contacted electronically to help me find the program, or fill out a form for me and send it back to BCSL. So what does that mean?
MORE WAITING and wasting time! Time that I dont have.. I need to get an application in asap due to their "assessment wait" of 4-6 weeks, not to mention the time it would take for snail mail to go back and forth. (If it comes down to that)
I'm starting to think I should just get a loan from RBC, it seems a little more hassle free, but from what I've read you're required to pay the interest WHILE you're a student. Sort of defies the purpose of a loan doesnt it? I mean, how is a student expected to pay ANYTHING back if they have NO MONEY? Something doesnt add up here.
Anyway, since I only have a few months of freedom left, I've really been valuing time alone with Maggie. I have no idea how much I'll get to see her when school starts, and if I'm unable to insure my car it will be impossible to see her whenever I want to. A part of me is starting to think school isnt the best choice, especially if I'm not guaranteed any career upgrades
Thursday 29 September 2011
Back to the norm...
So here I am sitting at work with just about an hour left in the day. My workload has diminished to almost nothing and my frequent internet forums seem to have died down. So what else is there to do? Enjoy our last little bit of sunshine then proceed to blog
I dont want to jynx it, but I think I'm finally settling back into my groove at home. My appetite is almost completely normal, and for the first time in almost 2 weeks, I had a much needed full night's sleep.
It's probably a good thing I dont have any followers for now, because I'm sure almost all of them would have hit the unfollow button after reading all of my complaining/whining about how much I miss vacation.
There isnt any excuse for it, but my mind is still in Hong Kong. Periodically throughout the day I'm caught off guard with random clips of our vacation playing in my head. The good news is that they're less frequent, and I'm able to "shake it off" alot easier than the first week back.
I keep telling myself that I need to start moving on and stop living in the past. It was an awesome vacation and there will be more in the future.
I'm really looking forward to our weekend getaway to Bellevue :)
I dont want to jynx it, but I think I'm finally settling back into my groove at home. My appetite is almost completely normal, and for the first time in almost 2 weeks, I had a much needed full night's sleep.
It's probably a good thing I dont have any followers for now, because I'm sure almost all of them would have hit the unfollow button after reading all of my complaining/whining about how much I miss vacation.
There isnt any excuse for it, but my mind is still in Hong Kong. Periodically throughout the day I'm caught off guard with random clips of our vacation playing in my head. The good news is that they're less frequent, and I'm able to "shake it off" alot easier than the first week back.
I keep telling myself that I need to start moving on and stop living in the past. It was an awesome vacation and there will be more in the future.
I'm really looking forward to our weekend getaway to Bellevue :)
Wednesday 28 September 2011
Thinker
Woke up this morning and was pleased to see that it's a pleasant day. However one thing is different, the temperatures in the morning have dropped to single digits, which to me is a bad thing. In Vancouver, that means summer is REALLY over and fall is coming FAST. Now that I mention it, faster than usual.
Lately my brother and I have been cracking jokes about the weather here, and how we didn't really get much of a summer. However there is truth to this, overall, we really didnt have much of a summer. May, June, and July were write offs, I dont remember there being any streaks of sunshine, and I recall still having to wear some sort of jacket to work in June.
Bottom line is, the weather in Vancouver is getting noticeably worse every year, and our summers are getting shorter and shorter. Some would say that we did have a summer, but I'm sorry, 2 weeks of sun with a few peeks thrown in here and there does NOT count as a summer. I still remember back in highschool our summer's would start in May, and wouldnt end until at least the end of September.
But I digress, this is Vancouver after all, so there's absolutely nothing I can do except go on Vacation.
Now that my weather rant is out of the way, there's still this issue of never ending nostalgia that I cant seem to shake. One thing I've learned about myself over the years is that I'm a thinker. If something is bothering me, I have a really hard time letting it go.
I wish I could dig deep into my brain (not physically) and really find the root of the problem. I use to think that it was just post vacation syndrome, but it could be a mixture of things at play.
1. Being that this was my first major vacation, I think the transition from vacation mode > work mode hit me hardest. The end of our vacation was like slamming into a brick wall at 100km/h. You're cruising along then BOOM. Its over. For me, it was alot to deal with seeing as up until recently, the longest vacation I've taken in the past 5 (ish) years was 4 days, and it was only a long weekend.
2. This one ties into the vacation mode > work mode theory, but coming back from vacation to colder, and generally more depressing weather probably didnt help my transition. I feel as though it has made my recovery lengthier than it would have been had we returned mid-summer as opposed to the end of summer.
3. I overlooked this one, but after some thinking, it is quite significant. Going back to school should never be looked at negatively, however I believe it is creating some underlying anxiety for me. Anxiety knowing that during my time in school, I WILL be wanting to get away with Maggie, I WILL want to be able to surprise her with the things she wants, and I will be wanting to spend time with her. Another major point is that this will probably my last major vacation with her until I'm done with school, and it's alot to digest.
I believe I'm looking at it more as a countdown to when the life I've become accustomed to will come to an end. I will no longer have the freedom of going and doing as I please with a fulltime job. I will be confined to the books, and any spare time will be spent with my one and only.
I've told her before, but I dont think she knows just how much motivation she is for me. If it weren't for Maggie I probably wouldnt even have considered going back to school.
4. As I stated in my previous posts, our vacation was simply amazing. Although it was a real eye opener, I'll never forget any of it, and I think thats why I'm having such a hard time letting it go
Lately my brother and I have been cracking jokes about the weather here, and how we didn't really get much of a summer. However there is truth to this, overall, we really didnt have much of a summer. May, June, and July were write offs, I dont remember there being any streaks of sunshine, and I recall still having to wear some sort of jacket to work in June.
Bottom line is, the weather in Vancouver is getting noticeably worse every year, and our summers are getting shorter and shorter. Some would say that we did have a summer, but I'm sorry, 2 weeks of sun with a few peeks thrown in here and there does NOT count as a summer. I still remember back in highschool our summer's would start in May, and wouldnt end until at least the end of September.
But I digress, this is Vancouver after all, so there's absolutely nothing I can do except go on Vacation.
Now that my weather rant is out of the way, there's still this issue of never ending nostalgia that I cant seem to shake. One thing I've learned about myself over the years is that I'm a thinker. If something is bothering me, I have a really hard time letting it go.
I wish I could dig deep into my brain (not physically) and really find the root of the problem. I use to think that it was just post vacation syndrome, but it could be a mixture of things at play.
1. Being that this was my first major vacation, I think the transition from vacation mode > work mode hit me hardest. The end of our vacation was like slamming into a brick wall at 100km/h. You're cruising along then BOOM. Its over. For me, it was alot to deal with seeing as up until recently, the longest vacation I've taken in the past 5 (ish) years was 4 days, and it was only a long weekend.
2. This one ties into the vacation mode > work mode theory, but coming back from vacation to colder, and generally more depressing weather probably didnt help my transition. I feel as though it has made my recovery lengthier than it would have been had we returned mid-summer as opposed to the end of summer.
3. I overlooked this one, but after some thinking, it is quite significant. Going back to school should never be looked at negatively, however I believe it is creating some underlying anxiety for me. Anxiety knowing that during my time in school, I WILL be wanting to get away with Maggie, I WILL want to be able to surprise her with the things she wants, and I will be wanting to spend time with her. Another major point is that this will probably my last major vacation with her until I'm done with school, and it's alot to digest.
I believe I'm looking at it more as a countdown to when the life I've become accustomed to will come to an end. I will no longer have the freedom of going and doing as I please with a fulltime job. I will be confined to the books, and any spare time will be spent with my one and only.
I've told her before, but I dont think she knows just how much motivation she is for me. If it weren't for Maggie I probably wouldnt even have considered going back to school.
4. As I stated in my previous posts, our vacation was simply amazing. Although it was a real eye opener, I'll never forget any of it, and I think thats why I'm having such a hard time letting it go
Tuesday 27 September 2011
Alone with my thoughts
Well, I'm not REALLY alone, but being somewhat back to my regular schedule means alot of time spent at home being antisocial. Its not that I dont want to be talking to my family, thats just how my schedule goes.
Come home from work, prep to go to the gym, go to gym, come home, wind down with dinner, prep food for next day and go to bed.
So what does this all mean? It means alot of time for me to be thinking. What else does that mean? It means that I start thinking about my previous vacation, AGAIN. I do feel that it slowly gets better day by day but I do still catch myself reminiscing here and there during the day, moreso when I'm able to just sit and think. Really Mike? Still? Unfortunately yes...
I'm finding it very difficult to get back into the swing of things. Work is just that....work. There isnt a single ounce of me that wants to be there, and right when I walk in the door I start counting down until I can leave.
My Sleeping patterns havent fully returned to normal, but they're getting there. I dont feel like the walking dead when I leave, so I guess that means progress. I'm just hoping thats actually my body adjusting and not only the sleeping pills working. The good news is, ever since this super case of jetlag has got me down, after some reading on the internet it seems that this is completely normal, and the severity varies by person.
Maggie and I are starting to discuss our next mini getaway, its no Hong Kong but its a place we've been to quite frequently and we both enjoy the relaxation that comes with this destination just south of the border.
I have to admit, even discussing our next trip feels like a warm summer morning: It feels good. It temporarily brings me out of this depressive shell that seems to have me encapsulated.
With October upon us, that means Halloween preparations are most likely underway with anyone that still wishes to party. It may seem like it will be a boring halloween at home for me, as my friends have no idea what they're doing, and in recent years that usually means that nothing will be planned so they'll just do their own thing. This slightly irks me because whenever I'm unable to do anything is when all the action happens. When I'm ready to go out with the guys and chill, nobody is around. Secondly, going back to school also means a very limited social schedule, so time is of the essence. Being a full time student once again also means that I will have the bank account of a student ($0) and very little free time.
Goodbye future 2 years of my life, I wish we would've had the opportunity to spend some time together
Come home from work, prep to go to the gym, go to gym, come home, wind down with dinner, prep food for next day and go to bed.
So what does this all mean? It means alot of time for me to be thinking. What else does that mean? It means that I start thinking about my previous vacation, AGAIN. I do feel that it slowly gets better day by day but I do still catch myself reminiscing here and there during the day, moreso when I'm able to just sit and think. Really Mike? Still? Unfortunately yes...
I'm finding it very difficult to get back into the swing of things. Work is just that....work. There isnt a single ounce of me that wants to be there, and right when I walk in the door I start counting down until I can leave.
My Sleeping patterns havent fully returned to normal, but they're getting there. I dont feel like the walking dead when I leave, so I guess that means progress. I'm just hoping thats actually my body adjusting and not only the sleeping pills working. The good news is, ever since this super case of jetlag has got me down, after some reading on the internet it seems that this is completely normal, and the severity varies by person.
Maggie and I are starting to discuss our next mini getaway, its no Hong Kong but its a place we've been to quite frequently and we both enjoy the relaxation that comes with this destination just south of the border.
I have to admit, even discussing our next trip feels like a warm summer morning: It feels good. It temporarily brings me out of this depressive shell that seems to have me encapsulated.
With October upon us, that means Halloween preparations are most likely underway with anyone that still wishes to party. It may seem like it will be a boring halloween at home for me, as my friends have no idea what they're doing, and in recent years that usually means that nothing will be planned so they'll just do their own thing. This slightly irks me because whenever I'm unable to do anything is when all the action happens. When I'm ready to go out with the guys and chill, nobody is around. Secondly, going back to school also means a very limited social schedule, so time is of the essence. Being a full time student once again also means that I will have the bank account of a student ($0) and very little free time.
Goodbye future 2 years of my life, I wish we would've had the opportunity to spend some time together
Living in the past
Its been less than 24 hours since I created this blog, and up until now I've had mixed feelings about it. Should I blog? No not right now, I really feel like blogging right now etc. I havent really tinkered with image uploading just yet as I've only blogged at work ever since it's creation, but for now it serves as a good journal.
But today on this semi-grey-sometimes-sunny-sometimes rainy and seemingly November-ish day in September, I find myself thinking back to pre-flight to Hong Kong. To be specific, the Saturday before our flight and onwards.
This is the day when my excitement levels really started to rise and I was getting giddy inside with anticipation. This particular Saturday wasnt exactly an exciting day for everyone, Adam was being taken to the airport where he would embark on a journey to Antigua, where he will be residing for the next 7 years while he pursues his dream of becoming a doctor.
Tears were shed and goodbyes were said, however I know that everyone was proud of Adam for following his dream.
Once we saw Adam off, Mr. and Mrs. Lee headed back home, while Maggie and I decided to go grab a late snack downtown at Gyoza King, but not before Mrs. Lee said to us, "next week will be your turn!"
And this is when my excitement levels would begin to rise knowing that in just 7 short days we would be waiting at our gate for our flight!
We had a busy week ahead of us, filled with small events here and there, a hotpot dinner to commemorate our first date, attending an unofficial revscene meet, going to the PNE etc. This specific week was probably the only week during our "summer" here in Vancouver that actually felt like summer, at least to me anyway..
You know that feeling, being able to be out at night while still only wearing a t-shirt, enjoying the company of friends and loved ones, late nights out, that smell of summer nights, the way the sky looks when the sun is setting all of which can only be experience for a few short months every year.
But as we all know, when you're excited for something, the days leading up to it seem to drag on forever, but in this case I really didnt mind.
Friday September 2 brought back many memories. No matter how much work piled up on my desk, it didnt seem to matter. No matter how complicated or bland the task was, it didnt matter. As 5pm drew closer and closer, I started packing up my things at work and bolted out the door to go home and get ready. Maggie and I went to the PNE after work, the work day was so-so with some light rain but in the end it cleared up for us and we were able to enjoy our night out, filled with bbq chicken, burgers, corndogs, kisses, and browsing the market, just as we did last year. The night ended somewhat early as we were both a little tired from the work week. We drove back to her place, dropped her off and I proceeded home to end a great Friday night =)
When that Saturday came, I was on a high, I felt great. My love and I had gone to the PNE the night before and the sun was shining, signaling that it would be a great (but busy) day.
My morning/afternoon started with Maggie calling to wake me up, and I think one of the first things I said was I was going to go to Best Buy to buy a case mate pop case for my galaxy s2, as this would serve as my camera for the duration of our trip.
I spend my down time at work/home remembering this day specifically, especially the final hours before leaving my house. The last minute packing matched with excitement and anticipation was enough to put smiles on every single face in a detention hall. Then those words were said by my dad "Mom's home, bring your luggage down and lets go!"
Every minute that passed after this was electrifying, just knowing that in a few short hours we'd be boarding a plane to the other side of the world!
It was a clear crisp evening, but still warm enough for a t-shirt. We pulled up to Maggie's house, went inside and prepped our baggage for the flight. (Might I add this was the first meeting of our parents)
After some chatting inside, Mr. and Mrs. Lee instructed us to head outside, as we had to leave to meet our check in time at the airport. So we said goodbyes to my parents, and headed out to Richmond on a clear summer evening.
(If you cant already tell, the anticipation for our trip was a big thing for me)
It felt like the ride to the airport took 4 hours, but I sat there beside Maggie and just archived the drive as part of our Hong Kong journey, watching everything go by and listening to Mr and Mrs Lee give Maggie more info and tips about our trip.
Once we arrived, we spent the next 2 hours grabbing a snack at subway, browsing the duty free shops that were still open, snapping some pics, waiting patiently at our gate, and making small trips to the bathroom to brush our teeth.
Then finally at about 2am Vancouver time, it was time to board!
I now know what Maggie meant before when she said she likes having something to look forward to, because now that we're back I really feel as if we dont really have much to look forward to in the near future and this is why I find myself thinking back so often to the week of August 28-September 4 2011.
Ive been really nostalgic ever since our return, and although my wife says not to be living in the past I really can't help myself. Although I vocalize it almost every other hour it seems, I dont think anyone knows just how much fun I had, and just how much I miss everything about our trip, including the days leading up to it.
I cant seem to let it go..I feel like everywhere I look, SOMETHING will remind me of our trip or the days leading up to it, causing my mind to fixate on it shutting down all activity while I reminisce, making me wish that we were back in Hong Kong
I hope I return to normal soon
But today on this semi-grey-sometimes-sunny-sometimes rainy and seemingly November-ish day in September, I find myself thinking back to pre-flight to Hong Kong. To be specific, the Saturday before our flight and onwards.
This is the day when my excitement levels really started to rise and I was getting giddy inside with anticipation. This particular Saturday wasnt exactly an exciting day for everyone, Adam was being taken to the airport where he would embark on a journey to Antigua, where he will be residing for the next 7 years while he pursues his dream of becoming a doctor.
Tears were shed and goodbyes were said, however I know that everyone was proud of Adam for following his dream.
Once we saw Adam off, Mr. and Mrs. Lee headed back home, while Maggie and I decided to go grab a late snack downtown at Gyoza King, but not before Mrs. Lee said to us, "next week will be your turn!"
And this is when my excitement levels would begin to rise knowing that in just 7 short days we would be waiting at our gate for our flight!
We had a busy week ahead of us, filled with small events here and there, a hotpot dinner to commemorate our first date, attending an unofficial revscene meet, going to the PNE etc. This specific week was probably the only week during our "summer" here in Vancouver that actually felt like summer, at least to me anyway..
You know that feeling, being able to be out at night while still only wearing a t-shirt, enjoying the company of friends and loved ones, late nights out, that smell of summer nights, the way the sky looks when the sun is setting all of which can only be experience for a few short months every year.
But as we all know, when you're excited for something, the days leading up to it seem to drag on forever, but in this case I really didnt mind.
Friday September 2 brought back many memories. No matter how much work piled up on my desk, it didnt seem to matter. No matter how complicated or bland the task was, it didnt matter. As 5pm drew closer and closer, I started packing up my things at work and bolted out the door to go home and get ready. Maggie and I went to the PNE after work, the work day was so-so with some light rain but in the end it cleared up for us and we were able to enjoy our night out, filled with bbq chicken, burgers, corndogs, kisses, and browsing the market, just as we did last year. The night ended somewhat early as we were both a little tired from the work week. We drove back to her place, dropped her off and I proceeded home to end a great Friday night =)
When that Saturday came, I was on a high, I felt great. My love and I had gone to the PNE the night before and the sun was shining, signaling that it would be a great (but busy) day.
My morning/afternoon started with Maggie calling to wake me up, and I think one of the first things I said was I was going to go to Best Buy to buy a case mate pop case for my galaxy s2, as this would serve as my camera for the duration of our trip.
I spend my down time at work/home remembering this day specifically, especially the final hours before leaving my house. The last minute packing matched with excitement and anticipation was enough to put smiles on every single face in a detention hall. Then those words were said by my dad "Mom's home, bring your luggage down and lets go!"
Every minute that passed after this was electrifying, just knowing that in a few short hours we'd be boarding a plane to the other side of the world!
It was a clear crisp evening, but still warm enough for a t-shirt. We pulled up to Maggie's house, went inside and prepped our baggage for the flight. (Might I add this was the first meeting of our parents)
After some chatting inside, Mr. and Mrs. Lee instructed us to head outside, as we had to leave to meet our check in time at the airport. So we said goodbyes to my parents, and headed out to Richmond on a clear summer evening.
(If you cant already tell, the anticipation for our trip was a big thing for me)
It felt like the ride to the airport took 4 hours, but I sat there beside Maggie and just archived the drive as part of our Hong Kong journey, watching everything go by and listening to Mr and Mrs Lee give Maggie more info and tips about our trip.
Once we arrived, we spent the next 2 hours grabbing a snack at subway, browsing the duty free shops that were still open, snapping some pics, waiting patiently at our gate, and making small trips to the bathroom to brush our teeth.
Then finally at about 2am Vancouver time, it was time to board!
I now know what Maggie meant before when she said she likes having something to look forward to, because now that we're back I really feel as if we dont really have much to look forward to in the near future and this is why I find myself thinking back so often to the week of August 28-September 4 2011.
Ive been really nostalgic ever since our return, and although my wife says not to be living in the past I really can't help myself. Although I vocalize it almost every other hour it seems, I dont think anyone knows just how much fun I had, and just how much I miss everything about our trip, including the days leading up to it.
I cant seem to let it go..I feel like everywhere I look, SOMETHING will remind me of our trip or the days leading up to it, causing my mind to fixate on it shutting down all activity while I reminisce, making me wish that we were back in Hong Kong
I hope I return to normal soon
Monday 26 September 2011
Today is the day..
Today is the day I start a blog. I toyed with the idea in the past before but the thought never lasted more than 5 seconds. To me it just seemed like it would be one more thing to worry about/another password and username forgotten. We've all been there before and it's frustrating.
However due to a recent life changing experience, now is the perfect time for me to get all my thoughts/feelings down, so in a couple years when life gets too busy for me to sit and just think, maybe I'll stumble back upon my blog, read my first post and nod with a pleasant smile across my face, remembering my first international vacation with my amazing girlfriend.
I should probably note that right now there are about 5 million things going on in my head and its super hard for me to jumble all of those thoughts together into an actual idea, so this first post may be a little messy and scattered but I'll do my best to keep it simple so I dont ramble!
Oh boy, where do I start? ...Right, so this life changing experience that I spoke of was our trip to Hong Kong on September 4th. Although the heat was very difficult to deal with, I had an absolute amazing time, so amazing that whenever anyone asks me how it was, I simply reply, "if I could go back right now, I would." I know I could probably say that about the other remaining 235,463,325 destinations around the world but the fact I was with miggleepuff made it 100x better. If I were to cite everything we did on our trip I would probably end up in the office for another 3 hours, so Ill have to save that for later when I have some free time to jot everything down.
But for now, I'd like to talk about my feelings. Wait, What's this?! A guy wanting to talk about his feelings?! Yes, now get over it =p Not all of us are made of stone, and everyone needs to let it out every once in a while.
This last week has been a bit of a roller coaster for me, to be more specific, psychologically. Miggleepuff hasnt heard the end of me complaining ever since our return and I apologize for that =(
Ever since returning home, I've felt a sense of emptiness, just the feeling that something is missing. Some would call it "post vacation syndrome" or "post vacation blues" and I'd have to agree as I definitely fit the bill. (The lack of sleep hasnt been helping either, but I'm hoping this is resolved soon)
I cant quite put my finger on why I've been feeling down lately and why its hitting me so hard. Nobody I know has ever been depressed upon their return, so why am I being affected so much?
I guess its because the trip was so awesome I'm longing for that feeling of freedom that you dont get with a fulltime job, where you're expected to do certain things by a certain time. Maybe its because I was able to be care free and just enjoy life without worrying about waking up early or being late for work. Or maybe it was just nice to have 2 weeks of just me and Maggie. It was probably all of the above, but I know for a fact that when people get so busy with life and things that dont actually matter, they forget to sit back and enjoy the little things in life, and that's what I miss most about our vacation.
Just her, me, and our 2 weeks alone on the other side of the world. When the hardest decision of our day was where to go or what to eat for dinner
However due to a recent life changing experience, now is the perfect time for me to get all my thoughts/feelings down, so in a couple years when life gets too busy for me to sit and just think, maybe I'll stumble back upon my blog, read my first post and nod with a pleasant smile across my face, remembering my first international vacation with my amazing girlfriend.
I should probably note that right now there are about 5 million things going on in my head and its super hard for me to jumble all of those thoughts together into an actual idea, so this first post may be a little messy and scattered but I'll do my best to keep it simple so I dont ramble!
Oh boy, where do I start? ...Right, so this life changing experience that I spoke of was our trip to Hong Kong on September 4th. Although the heat was very difficult to deal with, I had an absolute amazing time, so amazing that whenever anyone asks me how it was, I simply reply, "if I could go back right now, I would." I know I could probably say that about the other remaining 235,463,325 destinations around the world but the fact I was with miggleepuff made it 100x better. If I were to cite everything we did on our trip I would probably end up in the office for another 3 hours, so Ill have to save that for later when I have some free time to jot everything down.
But for now, I'd like to talk about my feelings. Wait, What's this?! A guy wanting to talk about his feelings?! Yes, now get over it =p Not all of us are made of stone, and everyone needs to let it out every once in a while.
This last week has been a bit of a roller coaster for me, to be more specific, psychologically. Miggleepuff hasnt heard the end of me complaining ever since our return and I apologize for that =(
Ever since returning home, I've felt a sense of emptiness, just the feeling that something is missing. Some would call it "post vacation syndrome" or "post vacation blues" and I'd have to agree as I definitely fit the bill. (The lack of sleep hasnt been helping either, but I'm hoping this is resolved soon)
I cant quite put my finger on why I've been feeling down lately and why its hitting me so hard. Nobody I know has ever been depressed upon their return, so why am I being affected so much?
I guess its because the trip was so awesome I'm longing for that feeling of freedom that you dont get with a fulltime job, where you're expected to do certain things by a certain time. Maybe its because I was able to be care free and just enjoy life without worrying about waking up early or being late for work. Or maybe it was just nice to have 2 weeks of just me and Maggie. It was probably all of the above, but I know for a fact that when people get so busy with life and things that dont actually matter, they forget to sit back and enjoy the little things in life, and that's what I miss most about our vacation.
Just her, me, and our 2 weeks alone on the other side of the world. When the hardest decision of our day was where to go or what to eat for dinner
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